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around Fall of 2021 i entered a relationship with a trans girl i met at a lesbian bar. it was the first time i had experienced intimacy with a woman and it was sort of life-altering. we only dated for like two weeks. despite the short length of time we were intimate it got pretty intense. after breaking up, the news started saying COVID-19 was resurging so i became afraid of going out again. i didn't meet anyone new for months and i couldn't get her out of my mind, so i recorded 3 songs about her.
the fear i voiced in this song ended up being super unfounded and i hooked up with a bunch of chicks next Summer when i started integrating myself into the local trans community. now i see her all the time at trans-centered events and it's weird? she acts like it's not but it is for me.
this song also calls to mind the time when i began moving into an apartment with my boyfriend. i was eager to get into my own place and moved my computer over right away, even before my bed, so i slept on the floor for a while as i was composing this. it's a surprisingly comfortable carpeted floor.
inspired by Yameii Online's "Yameii vs the world!!!"
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u said "i love u"
i said it right back 2 u
it's been a while since then
my dear...
prematurely ended
before we spended
enough time together
miss u 5evr
who knows what coulda happened
i feel so bad and
wish i could go back
make it all pretend
we broke up, went our own ways
but i still think abt u lyk all day
and they're asking if im ok
i dont know what to say
but at least i got someone
inviting lips
soft as they kiss
weapon-grade hips
architect with a grip
anime, churches, and great penmanship
these are the qualities of attraction
really not much to say bout them now
still on my mind, they won't go out
what if i never meet anyone else?
what if i never meet anyone else?
never even knew me baby
like you knew the really me
did you really love me so much
that you wanna live with me
what's it like to be you?
what's it like to date me?
did the way that we broke up
end up making you hate me?
shoulda seen it coming from the very first day
walked up to me from those lips came "hey"
heard you know my weakness it was merely showing interest in me
well i guess it helps, you are pretty pretty
oh.
yeah. that's it.
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